87.

Whao, fancy me still awake at 3:56am eh. What a timing to be wide awake, listening to songs & blogging. My insomnia is getting from bad to worse and if i continue being like this, i don't know how am i going to go through 2011. Sigh, it's either i pop on to sleeping pills or i'm doomed. Anw, met up with Cathrine yesterday at northpoint. Practically there's nothing to walk at thr so we went to the Japanese food court to eat b'cos there was so little people we could almost 'bao' the whole place. Went toilet to camwhore our lungs out after that. Fucking hilarious moments, shall not expose my 'NINJA CUPPYCAKE.'

This peeekture came about b'cos we're talking about some sluts & thn her 'brothers are loveee' logo came into our mind. Sometimes, i just wonder why so many people love to disiao her with the pose. We're not the first one to do that sia. Slut, i pity you. Continue being your master's (Calvin Tanoto) good little doggy okay. You don't know what he's doing & saying behind you. Awe, ;( 

Whao, you bet! Sticky's my favourite addiction & this was the packet that both slut and i bought tgt. Last till now eh, slut i bet yours was gone within a day. Loser! Anw, we headed to HDB to slack aftermath. Saw a few familiar faces otw thr. :D

Ahahaha, went to read the comments on the status Jared wrote for me for my birthday. Woah, screw you bitch. Ha ha ha :) Stop telling me about the sexing behind the bush scene, the prata uncle & the ___th girlfriend/boyfriend. You're annoying me with this nonsense, and it seems like it's been going on since my birthday. Whao, you're the best doooooood. See you soon!

86.

It's exactly 1 hour before my birthday's officially over. I really want to thank those who turned up yesterday, like Enjian, Zhenxuan, Edward, Shane, Yon Chin, Sanjose, Daniel, Evangeline, Cathrine, Liling, Lynn, Yong yi, Tizane, Jessie, Peiying, Sheryl, AhB, Eric, Ahxian... So many more names to name. :) Thankiewz for the presents, the cake, the wishse and the texts at 12am sharp even tho' you all were just right beside me. What's more, thankiewz for singing the birthday song soooooo loudly at 12am sharp that too :'') So sweet. What else can i say? I love all of you. Anw, the boys (except for heart) left for dota at around 2am, from east coast  park to downtime. Fucking crazy, i swear. Then after that at 5am, Zhenxuan, Cathrine, Liling and I left to my place together with dad. Played mahjiong till 7am then Cathrine and Liling couldn't make it alr so they left first while me and Zhenxuan went to look for the boys at downtime. They played 3 hours of lan straight, power la. >:8 Ha ha, then after that Enjian, Zhenxuan and Shane came to my house for 2nd round mahjiong. Crazy~

Anw, really thank all of you. Luv!

Pardon the gap on my hair. I feel so depressed whenever i see gaps in my hair :(

Thankiewz babies for the sweet texts. 

Some texts can't be shown due to personal reasons, some replies has been deleted due to privacy. This is the best i can do, you know who you are that send me all these texts. Really appreciated whatever that you've done for me all these while in my entire life. Lastly, the person i want to thanks most is still my dad and mum. For putting up with me for so long. :') 

85.

Will not be blogging till Monday. & I'd be back with peeektures, hee hee.

Thankiewz for all the well wishes for my 'sweet but not-so-sweet 16th birthday' dearies. (Not today, it's tomorrow.) But still... I love you, and i mean all of you. Will be seeing all my lovelies at ecp soon, (L)(L)(L) 

84.

All the lovely little ones are at school taking their N'lvls results now. Best of luck, my dear. I'm sick and tired of staying at home, was suppose to go for the bbq tonight @ Ecp but i'm afraid i'd not have energy for tomorrow and the day after tomorrow. Sigh, so i've turned em' down. I'm sorry! & i'm starting to realise that people are starting to expect too much in life eh. Cb, you don't see what you see in her in me because i'm not her. She's her and i'm me, we're 2 different people. Don't be that unreasonable bastard trying to find her soul in me, you'd never accomplish that task dude. -________-

In your fucking face, eat it and shut the fuck up. 

Yea, you should stop expecting so much because i'm afraid i'd let you down because i'm a letdown. Not people i want to be a letdown but because i don't even bother to please you, you're practically undeserving that's why i don't bother. Ol'ritez, i've had enough of you & i thank God i marked my boundaries with you alr. Amen! 

"You eat, you're fat. You don't eat, you're a freak. You drink, you're an alcoholic. You don't drink, you're a pussy. You read, you're a nerd. You don't read, you're stupid. You tell a secret, you're an attention seeker. You don't tell a secret, you're still attention seeking. You let someone in, you're easy. You don't let someone in, you're too uptight. You smoke, you think you're cool. You don't smoke, you're a loser. You've had sex, you're a slut. You haven't had sex, you're a frigid little bitch. You wear make up, you're a slag. You don't wear make up, you're ugly. You can't please anyone, never ever."

83.

"Trust no player. Fear no bitch. Give no pussy. Suck no dick. People play games and are full of shit, play the role and be the baddest bitch."

Now, what do you not understand? It was the 15th day of the month and in memory of you (fuck, he's not dead) i've decided to fast on food. Might sound a lil' stupid but i've got a purpose on doing that and only both you and i know why. Anw, skyline(d) at Bishan with slut and then headed to clark quay after movie. Slut wanted to get sticky, ha ha ha. Slut's highly addicted to it, beware!!!!!!!! Starbucks for Caramel Macchiato aftermath :)

Why does my heart turned sour upon hearing that? Does it really hurt me hearing that? Does it really matter to me? Do you really care or is it just me thinking too much? Do I really love you? I think I do, and i'd continue doing so silently. (U)

82.

Just came back from Bishan after meeting Mad. Yet another last minute meet up at 11pm, wtf? Oh well, so used to it, isn't it. Out with Mad to town on Friday too, and i realize we've to get use to walking in town with heels. Sucks to be short, i swear. :( Boohoo, but this is what life is. Never get enough of what you have eh? Fine, that fucker koh has fell asleep after dotaing. I vant tu keeeeeeeeel him already! Ogay, i'm lazy to type ;x Photoz babiessssss!

Nitez bitches & bastards. Am webcamming with shane, the bro that never fails to annoy me, but i like. Ha ha, his nonsense always phail. :) :) :) (bet he's going to keeeeel me if he sees this, whoops)

81.

"Get over him. He's not even worth it. He is not worth your time or your tears. Yeah you loved him, i know that. & i know you just can't see yourself with anyone other than him, i get that. I've been there. But why should you spend all your time sitting at home, bawling your eyes out and wondering where he is and who he is with. Do you honestly think he is thinking about you? No. Sure it hurts, the fact that he is out there falling in and out of love with other girls. Yeah you're going to see him with one of his new girlfriends. Prepare yourself, because straight up, it's gonna hurt. He will hold her a little closer and squeeze her hand a little tighter just because he knows you’re watching. He knows it's killing you, and that's why he'd do it. Don't let him get to you because that’s exactly what he wants. Don't give him what he want. He doesn't even deserve it. So what if he doesn't talk to you? Do you honestly want to be friends with an asshole like him? I know you still do, but give it time. Because all he would do is talk about his new girlfriend and just try and make you jealous, and really. Do you want to hear that? No. So screw him and his girlfriend. He will be sorry, trust me. When he finally sees you with some other guy who isn't him. With that huge grin on your face and your boyfriend holding you close, he will realise how happy you are now. And how happy your boyfriend is because he has you --- the girl of his dreams. He will realize the huge mistake he made when he let you go, when he decided to choose her over you, when he decided he just did not love you the same. Trust me, he will be sorry. So don't go on spending your nights waiting for that one phone call you know you’ll never get. Or that instant message you know he'll never send you simply because he likes to ignore you. He likes to pretend he doesn't see you online, and he does it out of spite just because he knows it's killing you. When he walks past you in the hallways, he is gonna look past you, but you need to know he only does that because he knows somewhere inside you, it will hurt. I'm not gonna lie to you. It will hurt. It will hurt alot. But it will hurt even more when you see her name and how much he loves her in his profile. It's all going to hurt. Knowing you're not the girl that's making him smile. Knowing you're not the first person he thinks of when he wakes up and the last before he goes to sleep. Knowing you're not the face on his wallpaper. Knowing you won't be spending every single moment possible with him. Knowing there's not going to be anymore late night phone calls arguing about who loves who the most. And you know what? Today, tomorrow, next week, or maybe months from now, your phone will go off with a text message, you will instantly grab your phone hoping it's him saying he wants to give your relationship another shot. But trust me, he's got too much pride. Even if he wanted to get back together with you, he wouldn't tell you. You're soon going to realise he doesn't care about you anymore and he won't be the first person you think of calling when you're upset. He won't be the one to put that smile back on your face. And yeah, it's going to hurt. Its going to hurt alot. But you know what you're going to do? You're going to hold your head up. You're going to show him you're better off without him and you don't need him in your life. You're going to prove to him that he made the biggest mistake of his life by letting you go and that you never really needed him anyway."

Now, i wish i really could apply this to my life. & how much i hope that i was this strong to actually act like nothing has happened, move on and still put on that smile which is not suppose to be there just to let you 'think' that i'm fine and that i will give you my blessings. It's almost impossible for me to just do that, because everything is just too painful. So painful that even the sight of you is stabbing right into my heart, the thought of you coming in and going out like as though i don't feel a thing, as though i'm thr to act as a toy for you to pick up when you need and throw when you don't. I've had enough of this painful nights, it's killing me so badly. & slut, you should have known better to leave than to wait till this day. I'd let you have 'peace' soon, fucking faggot.

Calvin Tanoto, you scarred my life badly. Not going to forget all that you've done and all that you've said. (U)

80.

5th December. 
Headed to some caves in the morning, long bus ride up the mountain. Fucking fat man didn't want to let us walk the first cave because he's afraid that rocks will fall from above, wtf? So we headed to the swallow cave coz' alot of us wasn't really happy to have sat such a long and uncomfortable journey yet unable to walk the cave. So in the end, he let us walk the 'not so dangerous' swallow cave. Ha ha ha, only then i realise i've got super fucking guailan family members aye. Nice one!

Look like a 'luo han fish'

Chinese & English don't tally? Funny fuck! 

6th December. 

Took a scenic train ride to Yilan National Center for Traditional Arts. The only thing that caught my eyes is the cardboard shop. The walls, the stairs, the chairs, the decorations of the shop we all made from cardboard, interesting much?

& not forgetting, the "MUST GO" place when you're in taipei & totally in for shopping, Shihlin Night Market. One of the best spots i clearly remember. It's 5 times bugis street, so much to shop & so many people. One of the best nights :) I've got no photos for this coz i was too busy shopping, oops ;x

7th December.
Yeah yeah yeah, shopping from dusk to dawn. Left hotel at 10am, shopped the entire day and reached back only at 12 midnight. I like, i like. (Y) Bought so much that my luggage lack of space, huahua. :B Not much photos this time round, intensive shopping uh. :<

Ahhhhhhhhhh, the elmo so cute. But fret not, i'd not abandon my all time favourite, mickey mouseeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee (L)

8th December. 

Whoo, last day in taiwan. I wasn't sure what i was feeling, happy yet sad. Was pretty much happy coz' i'm satisfied with my shopping & i'm going back to a place called home. But on the other hand, was a lil' disappointed with myself coz' of sir tay. Urghhhhhh.. :( Joyce, you phailed. Fucku! 

Sry, i rotated the peeekture for a reason. 

That's all i've got for taiwan, i don't plan to upload any on facebook. Coz' i'd be deleting all my albums in facebook in a few weeks time, so no point. :)

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2nd December.
Theme park on the first day to Taiwan is crazy. On top of that, the first ride is enough to build my guts for the rest of the days in Taiwan :) 'UFO Gyro Drop' Free-fall from some fucking 280ft is totally killing maximum, amen was all i could mouth out when i was up thr, ha ha. The 'Waikiki wave' was good (thumbs up). It's like the one we have in escape but it's always close. =.= Then after that, the rest of the rides is ... Boring :\ Not even a single soul screamed for the entire 'Space Mountain' ride, wtf?

3rd December.
Sight-seeing on the second day, boat ride in the morning was above awesome. Feel the breeze, double shiok-ness. (Y)

Sea-view opposite the hotel, best. 

Had one night stay in the Leisure Farm, feeding mosquitoes and at the same time, sleeping on super duper hard bed was all i could remember the best. Sucks like shit, but the programme was interesting. Played with sparkles and the best damn thing is that... WE GET TO LIGHT UP FIRE WORKS BY OURSELVES IN THE NIGHT, WHOO!!!! :D :D :D So amazing that this small cans (in peeekture below) can produce such nice and interesting thing. :)

4th December.

Went to see flowers & farm animals before breakfast in the morning. Relax like anything, i want life like this w/o pressure forever. 

Took the bullet train to Gao Xiong in the morning, rather interesting to find out that when you're watching the train go pass you, it feels as though it's very fast. But when you're sitting inside, you don't feel it at all. So cool isn't it? 

Oh well, i'd be updating the rest soon. Tired like fuck, just arrive in s'pore few hours ago. Pffffft.. >:(