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I'm tied down by love.

• I don't know who are you anymore.
• I don't know who am i anymore.

I'm very tired of the life i'm living in now. If given one chance, i would really want to start from scratch. "/ Like waiting for you to send me a 'Goodmorning!' text like how you used to send me or like how you're sending other girls now has made me realise that i'm really waiting for nothing. Always staying by the phone, hoping that the familiar ringtone would ring & i'd see your name on my handphone screen saying 'text message received from ______'. But well, even if you still occasionally message me, your replies from 3 sentence long has minimized to less than a sentence short. Your heart-filled messages months before seemed like a composition to me, now they're as cold as ice. I tried creating a topic hoping that at least the conversation between you and me will go on. But to no avail, it still ended with a 'To worse!' text from you. Just 2 words and, poof!, you're gone. You used to make me take my phone with me everywhere i go, even if it's to the toilet. Now, even if i go to the ice cream shop, i don't even bother to bring my phone. Coz' i no longer need to wait for your text, you won't even text me on your own anymore. One last note, if you're willing to do so and if only you're ready to start a conversation with me then text me, because i'm not going to text you anymore. I'm physically and mentally tired of this nonsense. I'm sorry :x

Dear God, the only thing i ask of you is to hold him when i'm not around, when i'm much too far away.

-Ctyw./"