Honestly speaking, when was the last time you saw me happy on the inside and at the same time, happy on the outside? When was the last time you held my hands and told me you love me? When was the last time i fell to my knees begging you not to leave? When was the last time tears of joy rolled down my cheeks? When was the last time you kissed me and tell me everything's going to be alright? When was the last time you told me when i'm sick, you'd be there to takecare of me, feeding me my medication on time? It's been so long. )': You made them sounded like fairytales, and i actually believed them. I don't actually think of you only when i'm strong, i think of you when i'm weak too. That makes me even weaker as days go by. You told me to hold on, and now you're actually walking out of my life leaving me in misery. Explain this, soon.
Dad and mum, why did you have to bring me here to suffer in my teenage years? Wasn't i a happy kid when i was young? Now, what have i become? Crying every night when nobody's looking, hoping that it'll rain in the night so that i can go out and cry in the rain w/o anyone knowing, or stuff myself with nicotine? I'm tired of doing all these, my heart sent a nudge to my body telling me that i'm tired of all these, while my heart isn't willing to let somethings go. You both gave birth to a daughter who is fucking contradicting all the time. Tell her what to do, she's very very very mentally and physically tired. She's breaking down really soon. >'(
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