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GONE.





Happy getting yourself involved in my past life. :)

97.

I wish that i had never met you, then there wouldn't be a need to impress you, neither will there be a need to want you, loving you and crying over you. There wouldn't be a need for heartbreaks, sleepless nights, pain or tears, and those forgotten promises. There wouldn't be a need for you to act like you care. No need for everything that you've done to make me feel like absolutely nothing. 


But then again, i'm glad i met you. Because you were the one who always asked me if there was anything wrong, you were the one who loved me for me, the one who cared when everyone else didn't, the one who stayed up late just to hear me talk about the worst shit, the one who never complained that you're bored listening to these rants, the one who will never disappoint me by telling me that you're very tired at 3am on the phone you just secretly fall asleep by the phone. The one who taught me new thing. The one who just did things, just for me. 


Baby, thank you. (15th)

96.

Out with Melly again today and today's plan was really last minute mxm but it turned out perfectly well. Went out with dad and mom to buy furniture for the new house and had dinner before meeting Melly. After dinner, my oh-so-nice daddy send me to Sembawang Shopping Center and while waiting for Melly, i went to cotton on first. When she arrived, we tried clothes and eventually i bought another top from cotton on. Joyce, control your money usage please!!!! OMG.

Did i mention that i fuggin' got a blue polka dotted water bottle? Zikes, awesome much? Hehe :} 

Went over to splash park aftermath, camwhored like there was no tomorrow.

Nice effect har?!?!?!?!?!

   

Uh, sorry to side track a lil' but i think she don't look like who she is in this photo

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I think i have some massive problem with myself and this face. I love doing this face for i don't know what kinda reason but i think it's gna be my trademark classic face really soon. Hohohohoho!! :D

Was feeling really bored at Sembawang Shopping Center alrdy so we decided to take the shutter bus over to Sunplaza instead. By then it was alrdy 10.30pm and all the shops were closed, we had no where to go so we decided to stay at Macs instead. Melly had fries, uber!

That's all i have for now, folks. There's more photos over at facebook, blogger's being such a bitch that it took me super duper long to upload just a few of these photos. Grrrr >( Got to wake up at 9.30am for tuition later, sad life. I'm liga sadgurlz_1994 now la, phuck shit. Have to go collect passport in the afternoon, Monday burned with mom. Hopefully gng for manicure and shopping later after collecting passport, i pray! Oh man, actually i realise that i've got my whole March holidays burnt. Ah, screwed. *%&^)#!(@!

95.

Peeektures.

Occupied the handicap toilet for dead long, hahahahahahhahaha:D

Short la. 

Popeye's for mash potato (dinner)

Orgy, keke :3

Siaozhaborzxcxz_indaroom 

TTFN. 

* More photos over at fb. 

94.

Just a quick update before i head off to bed for awhile cos' apparently i haven't slept since last night and i'm about to die. :( Well, met Madeline to get her braces done yesterday afternoon then went to meet Melinda and Amkhub. Done the payment with the idiotic AXS machine, made a fool out of ourselves with that machine >( Head over to Popeyes for 'dinner' what-so-ever cos' all we ate was fries and mash-potato! Melinda was suppose to meet her friend to stay out but i guess she didn't and we kinda split up at amk, she went to meet her friend and i went home. ^^ She came to crash my place at 1am in the morning feeling all tipsy, what a girl! Pictures soon, off to bed now. Keke :)

Just one to entertain y'all before i hit to bed, bye folks~

93.

Common test is fucking over. <: Meeting Missy Leong & Missy Chan tomorrow in the afternoon & rock the house down. Hehe :] Prolly will do more blogging after tomorrow.

92.

Bloggie, bloggie, dying bloggie! As you can see, i've not been coming to this space for quite a very long time & that's because life has been so boring these few days. Nothing much happened recently except for the very 'lovey dovey' day, Valentines Day. Well, these are the very few people i'd like to thank for making my day a very wonderful one. My lovely Evangeline, Celine, Claire, Amelia, Amanda & Stephanie. Thank you for your wonderful cards, cakes, cookies etc. Sorry if i've missed you out even though you've given me prezzies, but these are just the few people whom i rlly treasure. <3 Basically, it's the common test period now & life is nothing but - bore. Staying back in school to study like everyday. Grahhh! >( My mouth 'rotting' alrdy, finally got my smiley pierced today but it's the swelling process now. Uncomfortable mxm~ Pardon me, this is a rlly quick update & i've got maths remedial tomorrow from 9am to 10am. IRRITATING :(

91.

Know wht? I'm gna do a quick post b'cos in time to come, i'm not gna have the time to do so alrdy. :\ Well, i've decided to give school a miss tdy b'cos apparently i'm still down with flu. Went over to the docs in the morning, and Dr. Lim says he's seeing me the 4th time in January. Does this means that i've been falling sick every now and then? Urghhh.. So yes, bev hit me with a question that got my brains to move a lil', she asked me wht am i gna do now that he's leaving? Hah, all i could say was 'I'm not gna do anything, just gna sit here and watch him leave.' Oh, i doubt that all i can do is just to sit here and watch someone walk away.

I used to be so filled with emotions whenever i knew that he's gna leave but why not this time anymore? True enough, my heart is dead that i cannot even feel a thing. The thing that leads me to cry, the thing that leads me to feel sorry, the thing that leads me to feel so emotional.. All gone, i'm numb! This love that i'm always talking abt, is the love that i finally feel painful, draining and tiring. By now, i believe i'm more or less gone, just that i'm fighting to find myself back. I hated myself for being able to break down and cry all the time previously, but now, i would rather be able to do so thn to not feel a thing. The feeling of being unable to feel a thing rlly scares me alive! Half of me just fucking wants to break down and cry, while the other half of me wants to push him onto the road and get knocked down just to make him feel the pain that i've gone thru' (prolly i still am, but just that i can't feel it anymore) Everyday is another prayer echoing from my bones, asking God to take me away.

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3rd week of 2011 alr and i'm still not used to the school life, what's with me. Ever since the first week of school i've never been home before 7pm and i'd never get my fucking ass to bed anytime before 3am. Ol'ritez, i'm gna fuck myself in the ass very soon, so much for sleeping late and stare into space whn i could blog abt almost anything to kill my boredom back thn. Hahahaha :)

21st January.
Well, met Evan after her choir and headed over to Naked Fish for dinner. Yumz mxm~ Popped by NEX after dinner to meet those bbyboys and bbygirls to celebrate an advance birthday for Enjian. Cake cutting session @ skygarden or whatsoever, some left :(

So eventually we were only left with 8 pathetic human Jialing, Charlotte, Enjian, Yonchin, Deon, Boston, Ivan & myself so we decided to catch a late night movie. (Last minute decision again!) This will never end, i swear upon my mother fucking life till the day i lie on my deathbed. Heehee :D :D :D

22nd January. 
Headed to ikea with cousin tdy to take photos for my pussy Design 'n' Technology N'lvl coursework. Ah fuck, i want to eat ikea meatballz nao. :'( Craving for that all the time, even tho' i just ate it tdy i still want more. Down to some deserted place for dinner near queensway and i've got no idea whr on earth is that place. To me, i didn't even know that places like this actually still exist. But the food wasn't that bad :O

I srsly need to find more egg-citing things to do in life to keep this site more interesting and more updated. Cb, even before my major exams even arrive, i'm hoping for it to come to an end alr so that i can enjoy. Sighh, thr's smth wrong with me. NO JOKE!

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Ever since the very first day we were together, when both our hearts united as one, i could feel you almost anytime. Whenever you left Singapore for another country for holiday or visiting, smth's gna happen to me. Wtf?  Even until now, the moment you left, i'm fking sick. Ogay, cut that b'cos it wasn't for you. Heehee x) Anw, school's been rlly tiring these few days. Gave school a miss tdy, am down with fever, sore throat, flu. Sigh, what can be worse knowing that he's away. CB LAH! ;( I'm gng to sleep nao, no mood to blog :< 

P/s: Every atom of me is missing you. ;'( 

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Yep, i know i've not been blogging for very long and it's already a brand new year. I don't plan to delete all my 2010 posts because they're going to bring back alot of memories for me in future. Well, i'm being asked by an anonymous person to continue blogging so therefore today, i'm going to kick that laziness off and start blogging a lil' for now. Basically, this post is going to be full of thanks. So if you're bored and you don't feel like reading all of em' just skip to find your name in bold. *winks*

Yong Yi.
Thank you for being my pillar of strength and always being thr for me when i needed someone to be thr. You indeed brought so much more than what i expected in my life. Always hearing me brag about that someone whom you and i both know, i know at times it can be such a pain in the ass but you still continue to give me moral support. You're one of the few whom i know i can count on in times of trouble, hardships, difficulties and confusion. You've taught me how to take the first step of faith and cast things outta my life. Don't give up on your source of motivation because when you walk out, your source of motivation walks out too. :'( I'd continue to be your source of motivation okay? ♥

Tizane.
Yes, do not be surprised that this is actually for you. Although you weren't rlly physically thr for me but i know, you were mentally thr for me all the time. Fret not, you've been a rlly great cellgroup leader right from the start and that's something that's keeping me going on. Your words of inspiration via verses has deeply touched my heart in one way or another, thank you. But pardon the chimalogy in those texts, i had to digest em' slowly, but i could feel your love. No doubt, you're doing perfectly well. Having to bare the responsibility of a cellgroup isn't easy, you cannot be at more than one place at one time no matter how hard you try but don't give up. I'd be thr for you like how you were thr for me in times of need like how Yong yi and the rest did. ♥

Michelle.
Dear, you've also played a very big part in my life for the year 2010. It's been so tough for me that up till now, i still cannot walk out of that phase & i'm so thankful that God placed you right here in my life at the very right time. Your words always seem to be the best remedy, we could talk almost anything under the sun, moon, start, galaxy, milky way what-so-ever. And yes, we can even stare with those cat eyes at cat's-wannabe doooods eh? Haha, just want to let you know that you're a part of my life and that this is how much i love you. Thank you for being thr almost all the time even though we only knew each other for a short period of time, you indeed have taught me what's worth crying for, what's worth hanging on for and what's worth my love. You always brighten my sundays!!! ♥

Lynn.
Heehee, thank you for the faceshop thingy thing. Smell supaaaa awesome, me like it. Anw, on the very first time i met you, i could still remember you were the first person i spill my heart out to and you not only spoke words into my mind and heart, your words touched me and it made me yearn for more. Thank you for being thr as a very good listener. ♥

Nathalie.
Hunz, i know at times i can be such a pain in the ass and irritate you all day long in class when you're sitting beside me. And in you, i could see how little effort i put into my studies. In you, i could see how much a friendship means. In you, i could see how trust works. Not forgetting those tough days when we were on the verge of fighting our lungs out, ignoring each other, staring at each other etc. but deep down we still know that this friendship remains as whr it is no matter what. And at the end of the day, the happiest thing to realise is that, we manage to sort things out peacefully and we're back as one again. Lastly, in you i finally saw how relax i was. Hunz, i love you. ♥

Zhenxuan.
Heartz, thank you for being thr all the time ever since 2009. Those tears, those pain, those laughter and those embarrassing moments you've seen em' all, even the most unglam moments, you were thr too. (Chalet!) I know my 15th birthday was in a complete mess that you were at a lost too and you even lost your cap. Hee, so malu. If it wasn't for you, your words of encouragement to live on i srsly don't know whr i am as of today. Your words, i remembered most of them. You're one of the only people whom i know i can turn to in times of need, and no matter what the circumstances are you'd definitely do what you can do to the best of your ability. I really appreciate all that you've done for me. Your presence in my life has brought me so much comfort, continue to press on as you move on into your new education. Keep your promise to me, the one that you told me on the day of my 'sweet but-not-so-sweet 16th' birthday. Heartz, luv. ♥

Evangeline.
Princess, thank you for walking through the ending of 2010 with your Queen. :') All that you've done, all that you've said have also been deeply engraved onto my heart and mind. Those time when i've let you down by giving up all hopes, you were the one that never gave up and continue to ask me to press on, telling me that you'd be thr for me and walking through this with me. Words can never express how much you mean to me, how much joy you've brought into my life. Continue to work hard in your studies, it's gonna be tough but i know you're gonna make it thru' i have faith in you just like how you have faith in me that i will walk through it. One fine day, i'm going to walk through this phase and shout it out to you telling you that, 'I'VE MADE IT.' wait for that day to happen okay? ♥

Claire. Huimin. Yunqi. Bernice. Lixuan. Beverly. Stephanie. etc... 
Not forgetting all of you, those who have been thr with me, gone through my hardest times with me in 2010 when i was still out thr struggling to hold on to that special someone who somehow still mean something to me somewhr deep down in my heart. I know, it's tough to try standing in my position and looking at things from my perspective, but you people, w/o fail will always try to stand here and speak it out with me. Your patience, your time and your words of encouragement has led me through the dark times. Now, i'm starting to see that little faith and glimpse of light somewhr at the corner of my eyes but that someone is still pulling me back into the dark. When will i ever walk out of this phase? This, i don't know. But still, you were the best living people thr when i was rlly falling into depression. ♥

These are the people whom i never ever dare to think that they'd be the ones morally supporting me. My dear ones, you've done your best. And i relly appreciate all that you've done, continue striving for what's best for you and i'd definitely be thr for you too, even when you're at your worse. :')